Y’all at Bay Point each week when I play golf I come around the same corner and the same spot after hole number 6. No matter how slowly I go over that big bump or rather long big empty rectangular pot hole it jars me and throws me around and I do it each and every time. I have lost count on how many times I have bumped and jared and thrashed over that hole. So one day after the gazillionth time of treading over it, I saw that the golf cart ahead of me veered just a slight to the left and drove over the grass and voila no jumping and jarring.
It occurred to me that after seeing her avoid the hazard, that I could do the same. And with one fell swoop I avoided the hole that I kept trying to navigate over, possibly expecting a better result. I thought why in the world have I not thought of that? All I had to do was take a slightly different approach, not even a big one, just a slight one. And I only finally did so after seeing someone else do something different.
For many years I have thought it a badge of some kind of unspoken honor to do whatever I can without asking for help. As a leader I thought I am the leader, I lead!!! But truth be told the leader especially needs help in so many areas of her life!!! Only then can I truly do and be what I am put here to be. I have seen it over and over in the lives of others and I teach about it, preach about it, believe it but I was not applying it to my own life.
But NOW!! Now is all I have is and……Now I have reached out to get help for a long term rectangular bump that has been present in my life for a very long time. I have driven over that bump, year after year expecting different results. Isn’t that what some call the definition of insanity? “Doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome.”
A year and a half ago I reached out to my friend Jennifer Burg because she had been really brave to take on the task of being a bodybuilder and even beyond competing. I watched her transform as I continued to drive over that big hole in the road. At that time I told her and I quote: “Hell no, I am not about to count and weigh what I eat!!!” In other words I will keep going over that same bump, over and over and over and over.
For the past 2 months I have been enrolled in her program, Becoming you 2.0. So NO I was not ever going to count macros or weigh my food or check in with a coach and admit I got up in the night and ate 3 ice cream bars. THANKFULLY I dropped my notion of how it was to be done and listened to someone that had done it and had succeeded!!!
So here I am counting my macros, weighing my food, being totally and completely honest (ha ha most days). I am also seeing results two pounds down, one pound up. Most days I feel good about my progress and when I don’t I fall in love with the process of growth (or lack of growth) and I learn a better way.
This is not a post about losing or gaining weight, it is about seeing that if you are not where you want to be in life, find someone to help you. We are not meant to battle it out alone. We are built for community, for each other. There are so many things that we can do when we join forces with other people who have gone before us.
I am so very thankful that the leader in me realized that she too has to be led at times. I am thankful that God keeps giving me another day and another chance to become EXACTLY who He designed me to be. I am so very thankful for each one of you who have loved me along the way and allowed me the joy and the honor to love you back!!!