When I go on a trip, my first stress is packing my bags and figuring out which jewelry to take. I have worked tirelessly to cull it down and make it less of a jewelry trunk show!!! But what is worst is when I get home Is the length of time it sits on the floor unpacked and if there are 2 trips close together there are two bags unpacked and I guess if there are three, then you know how that ends.
My sweet husband, yes the slow one of the two of us would unpack right away, dirty clothes in the laundry, fave pillow back in place, meds put up and suitcase put in its proper place!!!!! Seriously he had a place, the same place. Not sure why I was so awful at the packing and unpacking.
I wish I could say this lack of domestic or organizational know how was limited to this but I am one big mess. My brain goes in so many directions and my heart seems to follow suit. I really want to be different, I want to be one of you women whose laundry is neatly folded and put up prior to NEEDING to be put back in the wash AGAIN. I want to be one of you women who are not embarrassed when the school officer opens the car door to let your young ones out for school. I am just praying that a family of 4 does not fall out with all the water bottles and dried French fries as I round the curve.
I want to be one of you women who know how to make a great costume or organize a great party and remember the candles for the cake. I always wanted to be one of you women who were able to throw together a great meal without needing to rebuild the kitchen afterwords. “Clean as you go, they say.” Ha, who are they?
I am thinking that it would be easier to trade in my car rather than clean it out, again, what in the world might I find? I have spent much of my life perplexed over the things that other women seemed to find so easy to do. I just think I am missing that gene. I spent much of my life making that my New Years Resolution and every year, well you know how that turned out.
So when I told my mom one day I wanted to be different and wanted to be more like those women who have it together. By the way she was one of those women, actually one of the best of those kinds of women!!! She would just smile and say, “Sweetie don’t worry about all those things, they are not that important, it is your heart that is important. I want your heart!!! Your heart is so kind and so big and that is your gift.” I had to remember this today when I looked around at all that I have not done and all that I need to do. I do know God made us all so different!!! I guess I best just celebrate that!!
All of you together women, I admire you and still wish I could be more like you but I guess my prayer should just continue to be, Lord let me be more of the good parts of me that you want so that you can use me. And Lord, I guess I keep housekeepers and car cleaners and all such organizers in business.
But lest you think I have no talents and skills, Listen up Ladies!!! I WENT TO ULTA FOR ONE THING TONIGHT AND WALKED OUT WITH JUST ONE THING. OH YES I DID!!!! NOW NOT SURE I CAN DO IT AGAIN BUT IT FELT PRETTY GOOD. AND IF THAT IS NOT ENOUGH I UNPACKED 2 SUITCASES TONIGHT!!!
Ps. They are still sitting on my floor!!! Lets not get ridiculous. Rome was not built in a day.
pps. I am reading Present Over Perfect again and doing less of the striving and more of the being, just being.